Merdeka

Negara kita sudah merdeka! Ya! Sudah merdeka! Aku juga sudah merdeka. Setidaknya itu yang kuharapkan, atau mungkin sedang dalam proses menuju kemerdekaan atau proses itu tidak akan pernah selesai? Tujuan selalu berubah dari waktu ke waktu.

Yang aku paling inginkan sekarang adalah, aku merdeka dari sejuta pertanyaan dalam otakku. Beberapa kali orang bilang, I am a deep thinker. Am I? Yes I am. I think even when I am sleeping, when I am driving motorcycle when I take a bath. I think about everything almost everytime. Even when I am talking to someone, sometimes when I have chat with them, I also think about another.



There are so many words and sentences rolling around my head. It happens automatically. Why? Because it just the way I am. Sometimes the thought make me feel insecure, maybe I should try to take directions of my thoughts to the positive thoughts.

Why? Kenapa? Dua kata itu sering berseliweran di otak dan telingaku.

And sometimes, I feel exhausted, exhausted of arguing myself.

Do not argue with me since I am too busy to argue with myself..

Sometimes I wish that my brain could stop thinking and analyzing.. I want to live for present time, the second I step my feet on the ground, the second I enjoy the sunrise, the second I admire somebody, the second I ready to open my heart and mind..

Sometimes, I wish I could be "merdeka"..

Merdeka dari pikiranku sendiri.. Merdeka from my deep thoughts..

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